So this is really a continuation from my previous blog post where I actually sounded salty af to be honest. The Uni rejection wounds were still very much fresh I wrote about feeling a little underwhelmed by my job, and that my slight passion had faded....
Really, the feeling's only gotten worse. After having 2 weeks of much needed annual leave (previous week consisted of a 60hr week no less) I came back to work on a bank shift, thinking I'm only going to come back Monday so I might as well prepare. I honestly felt that pointless and wishing I hadn't actually come in... I felt so helpless and guilty for the rest of the day.
And now, really thinking about it, these feelings have sprung from the fact that I don't feel passionate about my job anymore. I'd give anything to feel the way I did about my job in July. So passionate, enthusiastic,so bright. I really feel like I've lost that. In my mind I know my role is vital (despite being at the bottom of the work ladder), I just don't enjoy it. The excessive hours haven't really helped either, they've only fatigued me....
On a brighter note, I have had 1 job offer pending trial and another interview. Both of which are pharmacy dispensing roles.
Which brings me to my cross-roads-esque dilemma. Should I completely quit my HCA job and dedicate myself to my hopeful pharmacy roles (20-25hrs) or try and split my HCA job and my pharmacy role. I'd feel keen to do it as there'd be less stress from my HCA job and something sparkly and new from my pharmacy role??
Well, hopefully my interview Tuesday and trial Thursday stir something up.
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