At a career cross-roads

So this is really a continuation from my previous blog post  where I actually sounded salty af to be honest. The Uni rejection wounds were still very much fresh I wrote about feeling a little underwhelmed by my job, and that my slight passion had faded....

Really, the feeling's only gotten worse. After having 2 weeks of much needed annual leave (previous week consisted of a 60hr week no less) I came back to work on a bank shift, thinking I'm only going to come back Monday so I might as well prepare. I honestly felt that pointless and wishing I hadn't actually come in... I felt so helpless and guilty for the rest of the day.

And now, really thinking about it, these feelings have sprung from the fact that I don't feel passionate about my job anymore. I'd give anything to feel the way I did about my job in July. So passionate, enthusiastic,so bright. I really feel like I've lost that. In my mind I know my role is vital (despite being at the bottom of the work ladder), I just don't enjoy it. The excessive hours haven't really helped either, they've only fatigued me....


 On a brighter note, I have had 1 job offer pending trial and another interview. Both of which are pharmacy dispensing roles.

Which brings me to my cross-roads-esque dilemma. Should I completely quit my HCA job and dedicate myself to my hopeful pharmacy roles (20-25hrs) or try and split my HCA job and my pharmacy role. I'd feel keen to do it as there'd be less stress from my HCA job and something sparkly and new from my pharmacy role??


Well, hopefully my interview Tuesday and trial Thursday stir something up.

A mildly productive day

It's currently a blustery but bright May day, I've somewhat tried to get studying for my UKCAT, but the AR is being an absolute killer. I recon I have a fair grasp on QR (basically a speed maths thing) and DM (a speed statistics round) as I've been going over my GCSE maths. However the VR (speed reading) side of things also makes me very nervous too!! EEEEKK. On a slight positive, The SJT section, for me in particular, seems most comfortable, as it comprises of how you would personally judge a situation, specifically a medical/healthcare situation, so my job as a HCA has some immediate benefits.

I just can't seem to get the hang of AR!!!! ARgghhhh indeed...

On a brighter note, my driving lessons have been going fairly well. Done some maneuvers, recently navigated cross-roads and continuously making progress with roundabouts.

But with any practical must come theory of course and to be honest I haven't even started *insert crying face emojii here*. So I seriously need to get cracking on that. Saying that, I have set a date for mid-June, just before my holiday for a week, so it's all happening now!!

I have an app called MyDuty, which is technically for nurses, but I use it as a HCA, anyway it's useful as it's fairly simple and looks clean and slick with a slight cutey feel to it (I don't really mind). Seeing as things have ramped up driving wise and job wise (more about that later) I've definitely needed something like this.

I guess being busy has it's benefits...